No seniors..

So it is completely gay without seniors at the high school. I have about 4 people in almost all of my classes and I hate it. This class is one of the worst. I don't have Kaleb to talk to anymore and it completely sucks. I sit in class without saying a word and to be honest I am super annoyed almost every day. I'm pretty sure I am not the only one that feels this way either because I have talked to a couple other students and they agree. It is just boring without people here and I'm so ready to be out of school. It is such a drag not to mention dancing how many hours a week. Lately I have just lost motivation for a lot of things. And I have decided people can not be real, or make decisions, or some people are just too open about things. I learned a long time ago not to trust anyone. There are about 3 people I truly trust in life, and those people are Abby, Remis, and Tyler. Yepp that's it. Those 3 are also my main support and keep me from screwing up my life like I have in the past. I have been getting worse and worse lately and it is starting to scare me. I don't know what to do anymore. Those 3 have helped me take baby steps into getting better, but I don't know how long that will last because when summer comes I am constantly making horrible decisions and getting into trouble. I used to think it was okay to do the things I was doing, but now after I have been through it I realized how much it hurt me, other people, and my family. So we'll see if I can overcome the bad choices I make. It have just become more major and serious. But as of now I have no motivation and don't really care where I end up. So let's pray I can pull myself together before it gets worse.

Seniors last week!

So I am pretty sad for the seniors to be leaving. I have so many senior friends and it will be weird without them in the halls and in class. I don't know what I'm going to do when Kaleb leaves. Sit here alone I guess. Ha. But today was the water fight during 4th and 5th lunch! It was so fun! No one got mad we just all fought back and had a blast. I will miss the craziness of all the seniors. This weekend was pretty fun. I didn't go to prom, but I did go to post prom for awhile. After was fun also. I was up till about 7:30. School has just flew by this year. Next year I'm sure I will be happy to be done with the whole school part, but leaving everyone and us going our separate ways makes me sad. I will miss things here if I do leave. Hopefully a lot of the people going to highschool will come back often! This week will go by extremely fast I am sure. There are so many graduations I have to go to these next two weekends! It will be fun, but also stressful. Hopefully I can accomplish some homework and maybe get some sleep the rest of this week!